Wednesday, December 31, 2008

What makes the Difference?

Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing.

He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer.

He smiled to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up. As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean. As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?" The young man paused, looked up and replied, "Throwing starfish in the ocean." "I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?" "The sun is up and the tide is going out. And if I don't throw them in they'll die."

"But, young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!" The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said, "It made a difference for that one."

There is something very special in each and every one of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference. And if we can become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our visions the power to shape the future. We must each find our starfish. And if we throw our stars wisely and well, the world will be blessed.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Life

Life before us says us that there is long path, more and more to get.I have to exist in this world at any cost to get all what Life wants to gift to me. I have to struggle for my existance.

I lead my life with many dreams and hopes. In many situations i learn some thing new. Every time i has to remake my attitude towards life. I got to change my attitude towards people. People, they come across in various modes.

I have to accept every hardle that comes in my way. Some hardles taught me lessons, some hardles troubled me, while some hardles disappointed me. But some hardles challenged me.


Whenever a challenge stood before me, it make me think myslef low and make me lose my confidence. I feared some times and I doubted about my own skills. But the positive hope thinking that "Nothing happens BAD to me" is the only attitude that make me stand before the challenges. I standup in front and welcomed all the outcomes of it. When i believed that nothing is going to be BAD, there raised a self-confidense to accept whatever comes is the only "GOOD" left.


Even then if something unwanted happened it never looked so bad because i was expecting it as positive. I expected but never disappaointed. "Lets happen what next is..." is the kind of state of mind i was holding.
I belive in God. It gave me positive strength to dream big.Dreams can be turned to true when we believe that they can be achieved.

I always believed that God wants me to learn something, and this was the test given to me to pass. Everytime i prepare myself to pass by distincton. Good GOD, he never made me failed in any exam till now. And thats what is called the LIFE.


Life should not only be lived, it should be celebrated - OSHO

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Path to Liberation

We the "Human Beings", social animals....slaves to desires!!!

We struggle for livelyhood , we work hard to satisfy our desires and wants. we fight with fellow beings, we give pain to fellow living beings. Its all for satisfying our sensory desires.

When we desire for an object sprouts in the mind, it craves for it and the sensory experience that will result by experiencing it. If the person is unable to obtain of his desire then he becomes angry, and when he succeeds in getting it he is intent on protecting it resulting in greed for material possesions and their upkeep.

Thus these three - desire, anger and greed are the cause of an individual's downfall as the mind's swayed by one or the other.

We always ignore ourself towards attaining greater value for the soul and always strive for sesory satisfactions.

The sense organs by nature are outward bound and the self can be realised only by withdrawal of the senses from engagement with the objects. By turning the mind inward with the aid of spiritual practices, the mind will attain one-pointed concentration and grasp the blissful, eternal self within.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Conversations or Questions?

Being busy with heavy work schedules, these days i was not spending much time with any of my friends. Many of them understand the current situation in IT industry taht is not allowing to chat at office hours, but still some friends compalining that in anyway i have to make some time for them...:) Thats true actually.

Work schedules or whatever we involve in and become busy, but we must be concerned about friends. Even if we meet them its for very short time. And as we meet we start questioning each otehr as how are they? what they are doing? and just enquire all about their current life.And in between we answer to some questions posed by them too and say good bye and run in hurry to continue our daily "routine" work.

Yesterday too its happened to meet a friend online.He started questioning.I started answering.After some questions he started asking me "why i am not talking with him?". Then i said him, see we have not been conversing anything till now, its an question hour running between us.Its because in a hurry that any one of us may go offline, we just posing questions to each other thinking that we are caring or concerning about each other.

But we are forgetting the concept of conversation these days. Earlier when we are in college or after studies or at time of searching jobs, we use to send Emails concerning about our friends activities. We use to check mails for replies from friends. Now a days, we check mails for any job requirements or call letters or just to forward any funny mails to friends.

The culture of SMS and Chatting actually getting people nearer but they are erasing the communication or rapport and fellow feeling between them. These communication channels can never transport our feelings of sympathetic understanding. And the intense of the relationship is decreasing to very lower levels.

Conversation these days had became more mechanical and artificial which must actually be binded with emotional content.

Somedays back i even suggested by one of my best friend that not to disclose any of my personal issues about me to any of one whom i believe them as friends, as this may bring troubles for me. I was wondered and asked myself that what actually the conversations between frineds must include about? When friends meet, shall we start discussing on Politics? or on the downfall of IT? or on the Share Markets? Why should they all come between friends.

I strongly believe that if we are friends then we have to talk about our lifes. How we are coming out of problems.How we are goign in the life and with which attitudes.we have to think how to make our friends feel comfort when consoled in times of disappointment.We must chat about how to go forward in our careers. What the gifts they gave or took on their birthdays...Tell about the medicines they took which cured their daily or regular sickness...Share jokes they cut on their collegues or at work place...and much more to chat.

Anyways these all are my opinions.... May be after some years the word "conversation" will be replaced with "chatting" in the dictionaries.May god bless all poeple with more topics to chat about than regualr "hi how r u?" 's.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Step Back For a Long Jump

Some time back i read a line "Always step forward. If you step back, make sure that you are going to give a long jump."

It applies to all the situations. To our career and to our life.

Situations or circumstances in our life makes us to step back in our journey.We bow down our self before the obstacles, losing our power to jump and run again.

Now-a-days people are running to capture their needs and wants.Assume your life journey too is a running race with hurdles, taking you to the peak of the Success mountain. Some hurdles easy to pass and some hurdles need you to jump over them.

In life too, hurdles come across. Some of them pass away by time with little more concern from us.Some hurdles seem to be high. They make us fear by looking at its height. we lose our own confidence and we start thinking we may not jump over it. This attitude makes us lose and fell down before jumping over it.

We have to observe that every hurdle exists with one and the same heights. The actual difference lies in our vision. The fact is that the land we are running is not as straight but its like curves with up and down. The highest hurdles we observe in our life are those that lie on the highest curves of the path.

When you see any vertically high hurdle, be happy that you are just passing an highest peak of your destination. You are just very near to the peak of the success mountain. Keep running by uniting all your strengths; just speed up and get ready to jump over it. Have the vision of your goal. It makes you reach your destination.

Never get worried when you become weak. Even when you are weak, and you are coming nearer to the hurdle then stop running. Just get back 2 or 3 steps, have a deep breath,make your mind calm, at once run with highest speed and jump over that hurdle. Hey, You are the WINNER now!!.

Always chase your hurdles. Never Stop.Never take rest. Leave no chance to laziness.Keep your vision on the goal and go.Never get attracted with temporary glitters of metallic medals.You have to achieve the gold medal.

Keep Running!! Wish you best of Luck!

Monday, November 24, 2008

Best Friendship

Making best ever close friends and perhaps even more important is having a best friend, which can be a crucial factor in strengthening your self-esteem.

Feeling good about our self is more than just a phrase; It actually becomes an energy force for us. when our self-esteem is boosted, we become more optimistic, we treat people around us with kindness and yes we smile alot. And when we smile others smile back at us.This gives us a greatness feeling within us.


Its unfortunate that authentic friendships are harder to come by these days. Perhaps our time is too filled with one-minute-every-thing kind, like email, SMS'es,Chatting, call waiting....we are communicating through machines where empathy and emotion don't compute.How much ever the technology developed for getting people more closer being far aside physically, still machines are far behind in communicating the exact utter feelings beside what we expose or express through letters.

Indeed friendship has become the most neglected relationship of our busy and anxious times.

Good friendship don't just happen and they don't sail along on constant smooth waters either.Best friendship is said to be exists between us when there is an intimate relationship, in which we can be who we are (rather than what the other person wants and expects us to be) and allow the person to do the same.this means we can say what we think and feel in a relatively uncensored way, and we can share both our competence and our vulnerabilities without having to hide or exaggerate either ...... an intimate relationship enlarges rather than diminishes our sense of the world and ourselves.

It is this very sense of emotional intimacy that must be tha basis of a good friendship and the foundation of any relationship that may develop into a more permanent relationship.We may even call this most intimate relationship as platonic friendship, whether we call the other as Friend, a pal, a companion to share , buddy or whatever.

To enhance your friendship, feel comfortable with the other person.You may feel a a little vulnerable at first, you will actually. But as you open up and communicate honestly respecting one anthers opinions even though you may not agree with them and appreciating each others differences you will begin to relax and just enjoy the flow of friendship.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Proof - The Evidence

Most relavant words i come across today: Proof - Evidence , Truth

What is Proof, what is Evidence and What is truth?


Proof is any factual evidence that helps to establish the truth of something;

Evidence is your basis for belief or disbelief;

Truth is a fact that has been verified;

For example What is the proof that i am "ALIVE". I have the knowledge that i am alive. But still to prove it , needs evidence.Lets take evidence "breath". I say i can breath so i am alive.Buti need to prove that my heart beats or still technically i have to prove that my brain is "Not Dead" which menas my brain is working in normal conditions. Implying I am Alive.

When we believe something ir a true, it needs evidence by which we can prove taht our belief is true.

If someone else doesnot believe what I believe with their own evidence. Implying both of us are telling truths which are mutually exclusive.Here am taking an example of existance of God.

Then I say a thing can be said truth when it does not depends on any time factors or any subjective evidence.

So such type of knowledge by which we can say a particualr thing is TRUTH, that knowledge is said to be Devine Knowledge.

Anything that becomes valid or invalid based on time is exactly not the TRUTH.Anything that becomes valid or invalid based on a peroson's perspective is not the TRUTH.

TRUTH is not subjective to change at any circumstances. That is the TRUTH.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

My New Ear Rings




Yesterday it happened to visit Lepakshi Exhibition held very near my hostel. Exhibitions usually attracts girls. Me not any exception and i love to roam in crowds especially like in exhibitions.

Most of the sections are filled with girls surrounding whee most of the products are female oriented.As usual, boys accompany them in such places. I don't know why girls always want to show their talents in selection process and try to prove before their beloved. May be its not to prove their talent but it is to test their beloved purse weight!!!

Ornaments have always fascinated girls.Me wandering each section, stuck near the accessories section.I don't know why even i wear metallic artificial accessories very rare, but they attract me like magnet.I use to collect beautiful ear rings especially where ever i find them.The earrings dangling at the ends of earlobes look so beautiful for girls. They highlight the face and produce a charming look.Girls/Womens make over is not complete without an earring hanging from the ears and catalyzing their beauty.Sometimes it gets a romantic look on the girls face.Many Stories and movies proved the importance of beautiful earrings hanging on the girls ears.


I took a earring set and asked for the cost.The sales guy told some rate which we can get the same type of ear rings for half of that rate outside on road.My friend catched my hand and took me from there but my eyes were stuck on them.I came back again and asked for discount because unless he gives for the rate my friend asked, she wont allow me to buy.



Seeing the interest in my eyes towards them he refused to decrease. These sales guys naa actually they know better the pulse of girls that when they like something they get ready to buy even they are not necessary for them actually.Me not an exception got ready to give the cost as told by him.But my Friend started again bargaining with him looking angrily into my eyes for saying that i will pay the actual cost told by that sales guy.My friend thinks that i always waste money in buying accessories and not suing them at least for once.

I say to my friend that I pick a rose from market and i keep before my desk and see it till it dries.I enjoy its beauty the whole day which gives me much more happy than keeping it in my hair for others to see it. Isn't it fault? I ask her the same way i enjoy its beauty having such ear rings with me. No matter whether i wear them or not. See once i start to wear them regularly, one day they lose their color and grace, then i cant throw them aside because i got them and i loved them to have with me.

I use to listen many complaints from my friends(who are boys) too about girls purchasing behaviours that they purchase unnecessary things.But they cant estimate the joy they feel inside them purchasing than using them.

I say there are many things in the world which are not exactly we use them all, but still we like them to see and to listen or to feel like.

I got those ear rings by paying the cost told by the sales person and came out with my Friend asking her to excuse me and promising that next time i will only buy for the rate she says.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Kal ho na ho....

The saints explained truly how much valuable every minute in our lives. Every second passes by, which we have to live to its fullest. We cant get back any of one second passed.

You walk along on a green grass carpet, under the shadows of life. Time passes.You may have lost many valuable minutes or you may ignored many other people who come across your way while you are searching for unknown things which could have satisfied you.You participate in running race to achieve something while you are passing away many valuable scenarios around you which also can get you happiness and joy.

Stop searching happiness anywhere in this world. It can only be find in you and no where but only in yourself. Take the life as a chance given for you to live and learn. Not to enjoy and win.Love thy people, love thy nature, love thy animals and love all things living or non-living.


God can be found in Love not in Vedas or not by chantings and not even by reading sacred books or writing sacred words. All things in this universe are perishable. Only divine knowledge of love is imperishable.When nothing stays permanently, why we fight with each other, why don't we love.

Destroy your inner darkness born out of your ignorance with the lamp of wisdom shining in your hearts.

Live Today. By the end of the Day,Learn from Today.Who knows what happens tomorrow......"hum Kal ho na ho!!!"

Thursday, November 6, 2008

My Interview Published

Oh My God!!!

Thank you so much. I feel a little excited to read my Interview in a Blog. Even its a starttup blog craeted to get together all IT professonals of my Hometown, "The Great Proddatur".

Here it goes:
http://proddatur-it-friends.blogspot.com/2008/11/meet-proddatur-it-professionals.html

It gave me a small excited happiness to be the first Person of that Blog whose interview published as part of "Meet an Proddatur IT professional weekly". thanks for the Blog Editor for giving me such an oppurutunity.

Funny thing is I too felt little proud to see my interview published.I had shared that with my collegues too. Hmmmm...!!! now i known why these politicians are so crazy about their interviews in the newspapers.

Hey friends!!! Get Ready to celebrate this....we will Rock on.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Lovely Daily

-> Waking up by 6 a.m and listenign to Devotional songs coming on each channel of FM statios by leaning on the bed itself till 7.oo a.m

-> Having Bed Coffee in this cold winter mornings

-> Playing with the bubbles of My Pears Soap

-> Smell the odour of my hair outof Shikakai Shampoo

-> Smell the well ironed dress

-> Pray Lord Venkateswara to keep my Day beutiful and fill it with colors, Believing that he listened my prayer, keep the sindhuri on the forehead, and giving a smile to Lord Balalji.

-> Getting warmth with application of cold cream on the skin

-> Pointingout errors and bugs in Aunty's(Hostel Warden) prepared Breakfast and Curry

-> Reading Eenadu News paper Headlines and Business pages

-> Making my Lunch box prepared; oh my god! it takes long waiting to finish others an dget my turn to handle the spoons and items

-> Hurrying to catch Bus with my ID card, Hand Bag, Lunch box and Tissue Paper

-> Observing the girls and boys standing at the stop and observing their body languages in their different moods adn words

-> Coming to office, sit in my cabin, pray God once and look at the eys of the Ganesh's Idol and Sai Baba's Idol once and switch on the system.

-> Leaving office in the evening , very tired , listening songs again, by changing to various FM channels, so atht anywhere i can listen my favorites.

-> Again the Bus stop. This time the kind of people are different. All are IT professionals(by profession only!). THeir style, grace,looks and behaviours to attract other poeple to observe them and know about their goodness in dress.

-> On the way to Hostel from getting down from bus to room, Its Ameerpet (so colorfull!). I see Couples , some of them fighting and breaking cell phones on roads, some like looking the sky for their future plans, some of them in deep discussion about each one's behaviours before their friends. Some of them just getting their impressions on other by their magical words and laughs and looks. Some just looking at each other(as they think they are in deep love!!!) :)

-> oh my God! Ice Cream Cart at the entrance of our Street!!! I love Venella and Butter Scotch and Mango. From far long way as the cart appers, i lok at it eating all the items in it by my eyes itself and I pass by.

-> Having Dinner with daily routine Sambar thinking it as a Chicken Biryani!!!
:(

-> Making calls to some of my Friends

Some who sent me their queries regarding next weekend plans and meeting them and lunch and dinners...all about spending some time with them.

Some calls from far away friends, keeping each others in touch and updating about other friends.

Some calls from near and dear friends. Little fighting and scoldings with them and settling little disputes and at last go to bed to dream for my Dream Boy!!!

:)

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Attitude is Beautifull!!!

"Attitude" is a simple word that makes this world look as a heaven or hell.

Scientists are shouting about brains of next generation children that they are like robotics and not well furnished with human values and affections, which causes social imbalance towards surrounding living organisms. Why? Because we are not teaching them how to look this world. We are not teaching them the value we get when we bow down to elders. We are not teaching them the happiness in giving than earning. We are not teaching them how to laugh. We are not teaching them when to cry. we are making them sensitive towards self and hard to remaining world.

How many of you now a days wishing elders by holding both hands. How many people re saying "Namathe" instead of "Hi" and "Hello". When we meet anyone on roads how many are smiling in a sense of met after long time rather looking "ho this one, why he appeared now!!! lets pass away earlier" and just saying "hi" and seeing the wrist watch 3 times in a 10 seconds of conversation and leaving from there posing as if you have an emergency meeting with CM or PM.

How many are observing these days the rhythm in a falling down leave from a tree? How many enjoying its dances in air...? How many are observing the birds flying in the sky... I am afraid How many people in these days praying the moon on the full-moon day? How many people getting impressed by seeing the full-moon?How many are getting blissed by the smell of soil after it rains?

I am surprised today to listen one of my friend asking me "yaar does flowers also have life and feeling?" My God! Acharya Jagadesh Chandra Bose not listened this who found life cells in plants and plants can react to music and noise as well in early 1927. (For more info on Acharya Jagadesh Chandra Bose look here: http://www.astrotheme.com/portraits/k94ck2ML2F72.htm)

When we are forgetting to observe all these beauty in the nature created for us, how can we teach our children? How can they learn loving the nature or at least loving the man kind or at last loving their own family?

Look around the world at least at times. See the beauty of flowers when they are blooming. Worry when those flowers are plucked. Feel the difference when flowers are on the tree and outside. See how flowers dances on the tree by moving their heads when the cool breeze touches. You too can feel the same breeze when it touches your cheeks. Try to touch the air. Try to catch the clouds shadow passing on your heads. Observe the moon coming along with you wherever you go. Tell all those stories to your children too how much you enjoyed your childhood in your home by the stories told to you by your parents or grand parents. See the innocent thoughts of children when they try to catch the image in the mirror. Try to see their happiness when they try to catch the butterflies, sometimes fell down and run again ignoring the pain.That's the winning attitude in them ignoring the obstacles.

That's why children who are grown in a family is said to be complete and perfect when they are grown under parents warnings, grand parents affection, siblings care and concerns etc etc. Children learn unity from the family. They learn the happiness in giving from their siblings. They learn beauty of nature when they play in grounds filled with plants, trees and bushes. They learn imagination from the stories told by grand parents. They learn excusing others from their mother. they learn managing by their father. That's why children mostly play a common game "Mother & Father" and imitate them mostly in their plays.

Beauty exists only when we observe it.

Huh!! My dear God!!! Save this People. Save this Nature's Beauty.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Bangaram.....mew mew

"Bangaaru" our dear white CAT. We bought it home when it is 2 months old from my grand mother village.Very lovely it is. Me , my sis and my mother cared it very much. We use to play with sticks and rope. We use to care it like a new born baby.

The second day after it came to our little sweet home, my mother named it "Shankar Dada" by seeing its activeness and rowdyism.On that day morning a dog came into our home.Usually cats run away by seeing dogs, but for our surprise it ran onto that dog for fighting. We are afraid of whether that dog might bite it, as this is small and young. But the dog ran away out of the gate.So mother named it like that. After naming it, don't know because of the power of the name, it got doing too much rowdyism even on all of us.

Three days later, when milkman called to take milk at the gate of our house, i went to take the milk in a bowl. Then this cat started shouting to keep milk in its small coconut bowl.But I didn't pour into its bowl and wantedly ignored its sounds. Then just I crossed its bowl without pouring milk, it bite my leg and started dragging my dress and went near to my mother and making sounds "mew mew meeeewww" like complaining about me. Then by laughing I poured milk but it rejected to drink even I got its mouth near the bowl. It didn't drank until my mother again took the bowl near it and made it to drink.

Then my mother changed its name to "Bangaaram" so that it may keep silent from then onwards.It really started to feel my mother as its own mother. Even it started to feel me and my sis to be competitive to my mothers love for it.

What the drama it used to play in home is unexplainable in words. Even when I return here from home, i used to talk with it in phone. Whatever questions I ask, it used to answer in the same manner. My friends are surprised at first when I told that I am talking with a cat in my home on mobile. To make them believe I used to switch on the loudspeaker in the mobile and make them listen its answers. Naturally they too got surprised.

For holidays when i return to home, i use to sleep beside my mother leaning my head on her hands. Then this one "Bangaram" is ready. How it knows I am with my mother i don't know. But it comes and straight away it gets onto my mother's stomach and act like it is in deep sleep.If I just make its leg to remove from my mother, it used to start roaring on me, by seeing into my face. What will I do? me too getting angry I used to slap on its head or drag its ears and sleep again.

Almost it became like one of the member in our family.My mother use to call as it is her son. And really it used to behave as an elder brother for me and my sis, coming competition every where.Me and my sis used to get jealous sometimes by the love my mother shows on it and it shows on my mother but we use to enjoy it.

Every Sunday morning we use to get chicken for it. It loved to eat it.How it recognises its Sunday still we are surprised, but by the Sunday morning it starts roaring and awakens us to go out and get chicken for it.Sunday will be very cinematic in our home. Every time when we go out and come into home, it used to check the bags in our hands, whether we got its chicken or not. It used to sit opposite to the main gate and not at all moves from there until we get chicken for it.Even when after bringing chicken, I used to hid it up on the racks and tease it for sometime.And then it starts dancing around our legs shouting in loud and dragging sound like "mewwwwwwwwww meeeeewwwww". Anyone who listen its shouts has to close their ears. When we take out the chicken bag outside, then it skips high to catch it and runaway from there with the bag thinking that again we come and take it.

Days passed by, then entered its heroinn too into our home, "A lady cat". This observed that lady cat with utmost curiosity. It does nothing when it drinks milk in the kitchen. Until that new cat came, this never drank milk from the kitchen without knowing to us.But this bad cat teached it too. It used to go back to back of that cat. And now has to see my mother.She is very happy thinking that his son got a daughter-in-law home. Those days were very memorable to me. Whenever i called my mother she use to tell her Bangaram's adventures and love story. Oh my god!!! i can write its biography and has to publish it, to complete all its dramas and actions.

Today its almost three weeks it left home.Without me and my sis away from home,my mother felt very alone these days. And now this too left home.Last time when i went home i even went to neighbourhood streets too to search for it, but I didn't find it anywhere. So sad these days. We are missing it much.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Silent Dreams

At times silence is more powerful weapon I say. Even some words cant replace a silence at most situations. Silence speaks much then words are spelled.

When thinking about how to know there is good relationship between two persons is when the silence makes feel good between them. When two people are best understood each other then even a minute silence is enough to transfer one's views to other.

We observe that people who speak less will express their feelings or response most often by a silent smile on their eyes. Even most of "True lovers" I say, use to speak with each other by eyes. That's why if we have power to understand other person silence, then we can write bundle of books about their views/feelings. I mentioned Views or Feelings because views can be expressed verbally but we cant always express our feelings in words then silence becomes the only language at times.

These days i think I am becoming more concerned with my forthcoming soul mate or life partner. How he is exactly I don't know but i started building some impressions on him. Like he must understand what I want and what i expect from him, just not by telling anything but with my silent smile. He must be able to understand the signals from my heart. What ever the feelings i get when I hurt or when i feel happy or even when much affection arises towards him, he just has to know by a simple deep look into my eyes. when I say like, I am fine and ok, he must see in my eyes and ask me "tell me the truth?'.

He must be just a mirror of my heart. I must lose myself in me and I see myself in him.He must be ready to bear me, my childishness, my foolishness, my philosophy, my life style, my friends, and even my fans too. He has to understand my views about how I see this real world.

When he become my heart beat, i just giveup my breath away... I close my eyes, see nothing but him or see him everywhere and in every thing my eyse can see, don't want to hear any sound but his voice...or listen his voice in every sound and in this deep silence, i just make a wish...wish of looking at him again and again forever...and make up my life a beutiful and colorful book filled with all happies and sorrows, affections and fightings, understandings and disagreements, expectations and disappointments, surprises and prayers...and a lot many....with all these just be with you......

Anyways i should not expect anything from him, how he is actually i accept him but still I expect something(s) from him. I kow that expectations most of the times leads to disappointments, but nothing is wrong in "Dreaming".... so when dreaming why to dream small, we dream of Big. So utilise your eyes top dream Big and more Big.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Me, Myself and My Relationships

I am thinking about myself like walking to my own life backwards, and observing the past. I had met many people. My life till now was bounded with many eternal relationships. I always try to see my life by coming away from it, and observing it from outside. Sometimes i am surprised and sometimes i am ashamed of my behaviour and sometimes so proud.I look myself with a long sigh but feel happy and proud because i love my life so much. And i am so much excited about it.

So many people connected to my life today. I enjoy those relationships completely. I live my life completely. I pay attention to every moment to make it complete.So many questions I ask myself which "I" myself didn't like to answer sometimes.

When we are younger we set goals to become big nothing much only to become like our mother or our father. Then after we go to school, we dream of becoming like our beloved teachers. Then in college we like to become our Ideal He/She whose stories may have excited us.After college, we dream of about a good job and comfortable earning life. At each stage we find and make many friends whose interests matches with us.Time goes on. Still we grow up and start finding ourselves. Then we find we are unique from all our Friends. We start finding some unique features in us which are not matching with our Friends or surrounding people. Then we start ignoring them.

Friends who are very meant for us earlier becomes nothing.And who we think nothing will become so prior in our life. At this stage our opinions and goals change. We appear to be so meant for others sometimes so silly to others. But we don't care because we reside in world of our self.

We start loving those not because of their characteristics they have but because of some characteristics which we like are there in them. Here we play a role in a multi angled love story where we love so many people and so many people loving us. We try to maintain all those relationships live.Still here too, we may lose some people and we ignore some people or ignored by some people. But we go on striving to go next level of expertise in our thoughts and behaviours.

Hope this journey goes on. At last until we live we always have to strive for better life and better thoughts. We see many angles of the life and think that, we are so much matured than others and no one ever has seen those angles which we saw. And feeling proud about it, we feel happy.

So "Feeling Good" we go on...go on...and go on...

Friday, October 3, 2008

Happy Birthday!!!

Its just like another day,but it brings me many bunches of wishes from all my best friends and well-wishers. At this stage I look back and feel proud of what I have achieved and look ahead at all I am aiming for, with new hopes and dreams.

I feel thankful to my Mother for giving me this great life and for teaching me how to take the life as granted. I feel great for my lovely sister for her care and concern she shows and or the support she gives me in the battle of life.I am very proud for having them in my life.

I feel so happy as this Birthday bought many dreams into my eyes. I see many things happening in favor of me. I sense the good things God is preparing to give me. with all the wishes in hand and dreams in eyes, I watch the rays of sun and bow my head, for making this as a beautiful day for me.


I pray the God on this day to give me all that strength to face the challenges not with tears in eyes but with a smile on my face.I pray the God to gift me with the fruits of my friends dreams and wishes.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Arrows of Emotions

A great turn in my life..."Marriage"...... awaiting....dont know where this turn takes my life....a new world, with all new seasons and shades and colors.

Friends are asking me for my opinions on what qualities I like or expect from a good life partner... :)

So many questions arising ...Before expecting something i was thinking what can I give to my Life partner.Just LOVE him?Then here raises my questions: what is LOVE? Love is a load of noble thoughts as I listened.Is it whatever we feel whenever we are around a particular person?

When can we know that he is perfect match for me?When does I know he is truly loving me? when his looks penetrates deep into my heart....? When I feel like i cant stay without him? or If I feel if he stays in my life, then my life looks meaningfull and has completeness...?

Even when I run away from his deep hypnotizing look...I just can't resist...I just feel so weak... and can't fight back... or don't want to fight back... Every bit of my desire for him...desire just to be there along with him...and to look at him...look at him...look at him.... is this LOVE?

Is he my soul mate who becomes my weakness and he only becomes my strengths? Or when I feel that i can spend whole life happily just by haivng him beside me? Or if I feel that by having him beside, I feel very strong enough to achieve every thing I want from my life. I think there must be something in his heart that makes me, want to lose myself .

Sometimes i think, forget about someone else creeping into my life and let none rule my heart.

Shall I let it be just a turn or am I going to make it "the" turn, that's the question on my mind right now...My life is in my hands...and i'm putting my hands on the gear...but I wonder which speed to give it? a 1 ? a 2? a 3? a 4? or a 5?...

The arrows of my emotions hitting my heart.....its sweet suffering, and its a wonderful bliss ... ;)

Friday, September 26, 2008

Expired Relatonships

I had read a line recently that "Every Relatioship has an Expiry Date". It was nothing when I read it for first time. But I had known the meaning now a days. Here I derive from the word expiry date, every relationship will also have a manufacturing date. So when it comes to manufacturing a relationship, the outcome of production is a Relationship itself. In general Expiry date is fixed based on created date.

So coming to Production, as a commerce student I made some eqations like there exists production errors in some Products(relatioships) which ultimatly endsup/expires/destroys before its expiry date. Ultimatly the manufacturer whose efforts made this product to comeout, will suffer alot by the Loss (here i define LOSS in terms of feelings and emotions developed with that relationship).

Feelings or Emotions developed once cant be destroyed with out any stains left.So before creating any Relationship, be ready to get stained too.

And be sure that no production errors are made in a hurry to produce the product early. Never compromise in Quality too.

For all my relationships which are expired on or before the expiry date, I always had stored their impressions inside my memories. And for each such relationship i learned many errors or bugs i made while manufacturing them.

Thank you LIFE for giving me this oppurtunity and Thank you GOD for giving me this LIFE.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Liberty and Individuality

A monarch said to a hermit, "Come with me and I will give you power."
"I have all the power that I know how to use," replied the hermit.
"Come," said the king, "I will give you wealth."
"I have no wants that money can supply." said the hermit.
"I will give you honor," said the monarch.
"Ah, honor cannot be given, it must he earned," was the hermit's answer. "Come," said the king, making a last appeal, "and I will give you happiness." "No," said the man of solitude, "there is no happiness without liberty, and he who follows cannot be free."
"You shall have liberty too," said the king. "Then I will stay where I am," said the old man.

What is Liberty? its a Freedom of choice. Every person need to have their own choice on how to live and what to believe.

We are all travelers, and not one traveler is perfectly certain that he is going in the right direction.But every traveller believes his own way or direction is better than others.Other travellers may divert us , try to convince us theirs way is good or better or best. Individuality exists here.Its uniqueness in our thoughts and beliefs from others.

I wish to rely a little upon my own judgment in any matter. What I believe is right, I will do it. We should all remember that to be like other people is to be unlike ourselves. It is a responsibility to think and act for yourself.

Every human being should take a road of his own. Every mind should be true to itself -- should think, investigate and conclude for itself.Once you start changing your mind or thoughts or way or direction for others, then starts the death of your Liberty and individuality taht exists with that person for whom you change.

This is all my opinion on being self. Individuality gives us a feeling of self-respect and personal worth.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

I pray to born as Women always

I feel so proud sometimes to be born as a Women.

The strengths SHE has are unique. SHE can do anything if SHE desires, SHE can achieve anything if SHE wants.

And SHE can forgive, SHE can forget , SHE can shower love, SHE is strong, SHE is soft, SHE is brave, SHE can handle troubles, SHE can take any burdens on to her shoulder, SHE laughs, SHE cries, SHE kisses, and SHE SHE SHE SHE can do anything in this universe. And there are no limits for her desires.

SHE plays many roles in her life, a daughter,a sister, a friend, a close pal, a wife, a partner, a soul mate, a mother, a child, an elder etc etc. Sometimes she also plays as a Father.

But SHE forgets what she is worth.

Its fromWomen, all these people in the world are born out from.

Dear Girls/Ladies/Women,
Believe in you,
In what you want and what you do,
Then Success is yours.

It's the strength of a woman

Monday, September 8, 2008

Life is all a game of Snakes and Ladders

Life always is a game of Snake and ladder. We have to move our dice according to what the goals we had set to reach.

If we fail to move our dice accordingly, the dice will move our golas randomly may be towards or away. Make your way more secured before taking any step forward. There lies a possibility always to find a snake or a ladder.

Or sometimes stable empty cells where in the life too we dont find any improvement in the situations we are in. But we must not lose hope. Have to go forward moving the dice around.

Sometimes we may move from one cell to another cell which has neither snake nor ladder, even after our hard worked movements towards our goals, But we should not get discouraged. One cell moving forward is a symbol of moving one step ahead towards our goals.

keeping this in mind, Move forward in your Life.